she?who?

there's this girl..who's i would say very close to me..just like my clone i guess..

im quite speechless bout her..
but its quite a long post..heh
and im no where better as well..
she havent change much since the day i get to really know her..
she's just..

seems like ppl take advantage/make use of her whenever they can..ok..sounds so "kua jeung"..
she noes bout it..but she just couldnt help it once again..
sometimes..or most of the time depends on situation..she just felt..yes..helpful as she get to help others but also useless dat she cant even take care/stand up for herself..
and also when she noes its not right to shut up on certain matters..she'll still shut up n keep it to herself if can..
she cares too much of how ppl feel n what ppl thinks more than herself?
its a diff thing if its someone that she really wants to help..

she just felt as if like..
its their prob..its wad they've done that leads them to such situations..
n guess what..she's da one that handles their circumstances?aint that just too much?how fair/unfair is this to her?
but nonetheless..she's now in such position cos of wad she have done..she have to face her own circumstance..

she sometimes wonder..if she really looks like those kind of ppl that once ppl ask for help..no matter wad situation it is..or how close or not close this person is to her..there's a high possibility for her to say yes..no matter how unwilling she is..
her fren once said that she doesnt look like a person who'll say yes to almost anything but there's an "aura" in her that she's willing to help..
wonder how true this statement is..hehe


she started to think bout certain stuffs again recently..
tho its not necessary..but she just couldnt help it kua..
just thinking..its her fren business..y would she wanna care so much?
they seems fine..n she's right there hiding one conner thinking so much..
sometimes she just think..mayb she shudnt noe too much..tho she wants to..cos she cares..but sometimes knowing too much..as days goes by..things just start popping into her mind again..

she wanted to ask..but guess she dare not..or think she should not..
as she wonder who's she to bother so much?
but then she don ask doesnt mean she dont care okay?
if she don care she wouldnt even have wonders in her mind..

do they even wan her to bother in the first place?
think bout it la my dear fren..
mayb they doesnt want u to..rite?
"ke po" ppl might call u..
if they really wan u to "masuk campur"..they'll eventually talk to u bout it..
or she might b wrong..or i might b wrong..
if we're wrong..pls 4give..
its not easy to keep acting as if u're fine..
ppl can see it somehow..so no point hiding/acting always..
rite?
but i think she'll still do it..-.-"


some ppl thinks that doing such things might b good for her..
but have u ppl ever think that doing such things..might even "scare" her?
make her afraid somehow?
stressed some how?
but she just kept quiet..
cos sometimes she just listen to orders..n dare not to object it..
well..as if she object it ppl will listen..
i guess she tried b4..but it doesnt work..
its like..donno how many on 1..
once again she felt slightly unfair..
she doesnt want to sounds so unwilling to do so when she's asked to..
its not like she's unwilling..
but then at least not everytime la rite..
felt as if like they're picking on her..
yes..cos they think its good for her..
but have u asked if its really good for her?sth dat she wants?
she do have someone to go to for this issue..but not too sure when will she speak up bout it..
so..oh well..
note : this is a one sided thinking..heh


she's just ranting too much lately..
but oh well..
da only way to xpress?
but ranting doesnt seems to b a way to help her..
its still in her..

if u read this..perhaps u can just ignore this..
as i do not noe how much u understand this..
if u noe who is she..i think i suggest u not to ask her wad's wrong..
unless u wanna get a disappointed ans..
don b suprised..if u asked her wad's wrong..n da ans u get is nth..=)
unless u think that..she'll tell u wad's it bout la..hehe
but as far as i understand her..she'll most likely say nth..heeee
unless u're really so "special" in a way to her..as she really can tell u like anything n everything..
mayb u are "someone" to her..but perhaps its not da right time to tell yet?
not sure..=)

Happie Bday Heng Jo Jo..^^

Happy Birthday Babe!hehe
(yesterday tho..haha)

went over to her place like wad..9 sth AM..n just got back not long..hehe
went dinner with her family also..=S..di windmill..
paiseh la..heh..
"lor lui"..itulah saya..><









dont worry..wont post up ur "drunken" pic..give u face since its ur day..haha..=D

anyway..hope dat u had a good time ever since saturday..till now..hehe

need not b so thankful la..
its ur bday man!*cey*
as long as ure happy then can d lo..hehehe..
n hope dat u really really like it la..^^

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speaking bout dat..day b4 (sunday)..had a small party/gathering la..
it turned out well tho..hehe
gratz gratz..

and da day b4 dat (saturday)..valentines day..
we sort of have a "girls nite out" kinda thing..
end up went to ara damansara..

lobsterrrr...~~~...=S

last week i think..went to a restaurant with family..
oh..n i still have no idea where is it again..hehe
oh oh..JUST found out..its in damansara..but donno which part..called garden palace..its located behind OKAY restaurant!haha

last time we used to go to unique 23..but this time went to this place under suggestion of my elder bro or his gf im not too sure..cos the food there are quite..unique in a way la i guess..hehe

so...1 of da dish we ate was lobster..normally is eat da body part then da head part go cook it with mee one..n yea..we ate it raw like sashimi..but if we wanna cook it also can..there's a stove for us to do so..

so last time when we ate in unique 23..da lobster..as its raw..n fresh in a way la..my bro said da flesh still moving one..abit la..n da sesungut?also moving abit..

but this time..=S
u shall watch da vid..
i don think da flesh move la..haha..but..><


my mom sounds xcited in a way..if u can hear la..haha

i so da tak lalu makan d lo!haha
makan 1 piece only..hehe
not dat i kejam okay..
my bro was like..wa..my dad still can eat ah..da lobster looking at him summore..haha

so yala..dat's it la..hehe

hoho!useless me!

im not working!working but not work work..got 'training'..its actually better than orientation day tho..hehe..really get to learn certain things..
last for 2 days..today n tmr..good timing in a way la..heh
"service is offered..and not asked"..hehehe
n i guess i really need to build myself up..tho i shud do so quite some time ago..but still..its still progressing..but not fast..

its da 4th week of training d..
6 more weeks to go..
quite fast lo..
sekelip mata..eh..2nd industrial training d..:rolleyes:


oh..happie bday nian!tho its tmr..hehe

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im annoyed..
ok..not annoyed..i donno wad feeling it is..

but why?
wad's da point of me doing such thing?being da way i am?
felt so dumb..n im not suprised!..
im so not surprised dat this will happen..so not!
who am i to blame?no one lo..
cos da prob is in me..
i just nv learn..nv nv nv..
but still..why?
didnt i give wad u wanted?mayb not all da time..but still!im good/kind enough to do so okay?
who r u for me to treat u that way?arent i good enough?urghh
ive underestimated u..
tho i donno if im accusing or not..but..i donno..sry dat my feeling tells me my feeling is right..

felt as if im doing such thing for nth..
'effort' go to waste..
yes its my fault..for being so naive or wad so ever..but oh ah..whatever la!
i don think i'll b changing..
i'll just c how long this will last..
n how long can i stand living this way..

such a useless idiotic fella i am..=)
its time to laugh at myself once again..

*sounds as if wth happened..wad's so big..apparently..nth big..hehe*

picturah

nth much..just feel like posting sth dat i didnt manage to do so b4 this..hehehe
more on like piccies time!

start with college..


and again..this one very hard to cut off..


turn out to b like this..hehe


marble cheese cake..=D..
i like to shape dat thingi..hehe


oh..this small thing is not nail polish k..haha
nola..its some kind of wine thing?flavours la..n we're like supposed to smell n guess da flavour..n yea..there's like 52 of it!!..ofcos didnt smell all la tho we're supposed to..n out of i cant rem how many..my group guessed bout 5 or so correct only..haha


i guess imma do this during term 4?or 5?or 6?i donno..hehe


group 4 serving..snowman as their center piece..hehe


chung as da bartender..n he actually carve da grape..free sial..-.-"
great effort tho..hehe

next..things gotta do with jo..


mum mum time..when was this again?hmm
which is mine which is hers?:rolleyes:


saw this somewhere?
we got sesat..n found da place n we got sesat in da place..and..yea..haha..

went singapore..


virgo..


d room..ya..so "big" for 4 of us..3 bed only wo..


now spot d other bed?hehe


1st half of da toilet..


d other half..><


minum di depan parents sial..xD


bored dat needs to play bball instead?haha
i capture one ok..=p




i met this 2 small kid..xD

random stuffs..


100 celcius steamboat!hehehe


going to shang ri la hotel for dinner if im not wrong..


my grandmother uses this tissue dude!=p


gathering with ex classmates..


our hk uni..
baguss..another of my model..ahahha

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i guess some/most of us are trying to adapt to this training moments..
may have some bad or good times..i donno
g5 ppl are getting lesser n lesser once again i felt..
hope that you will reconsider it once again..=)

my fingers..=(
oh well..7 more weeks to go..=(
going back to hometown..coming back on tues..working back on wed..adoi..



anyway..happy cny people~~=)

nth much post..heh

havent been updating much..nth to update also lo..hehe
anyway..results out d..BUT..couldnt c how we score..just noe if we passed or not..dong-key~

training..so far so good la i guess..
8 more weeks to go..*oh no*
i felt so clumsy..
n im annoyed by it..-.-..hehe
its only 2 weeks..n this is da 3rd week..
every week..sure got sth happen one lo..ish
*new shoe pls!heh*

oh..i guess imma go back for cny..felt bad if i dont..hehe
then next day need to work..ah..gg..x.X

yalo yalo..liddat lo..
everyday..come back..felt so...restless?tired la..
o well..working life..
but im not paid ok!c so semangat..=p
like wad ppl said.."cheap labour..eh..free labour la!"..apa apa saja la..lol

*now i wonder if i shud go on with my plan..
mayb i'll just do it..with sth extra la..heh..*


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ppl tends to get emo lately..
i mean at least i noe i have some ppl emo-ing lately..hehe

anyway..
just hope dat these ppl..
starts to c things in a new point of view..
don think so much..like way too much..can think la..but only pick da certain one..pick wisely yo..

"some dreams will nv come true..always stay cool..i'll always b with u" - be true
"life is difficult u cant go away..don hide urself in da conner..u have my place to stay" - shining friends

to you..
may b lonely in d inside..but nv is in d outside..=)
if u need me..just ring me up n *zoop!*..there i am by ur side..^^..

"watever hurts u will also teach u, so accept da fact dat u might fail here n there"..^^

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"I'll be there"

Looking in my memory, what did I see?
All the good times you gave to me.
Even from the park, way after dark,
Listen to the radio in my car.
It's times like these you see the wood from the trees,
You come to my aid when I'm on my knees.
The next time you feel alone, just pick up the phone.

Reach out and touch, whisper my name.
I will deliver, again and again.
Straight from the heart, honest and true,
I promise you this, I will be there for you.

When I think, I'd be lost without you.
Makes me wonder what I did before you.
When it mattered you were there for me,
You were my rock boy, you were my energy.
Time flies but I'll never forget, the way it was the day we met.
Don't be surprised, you know it's true.
I'm gonna be there for you.

Through the sun, through the rain,
I will still feel the same,
Be it good, be it bad,
I'll always understand.
When you're down, when you're blue,
I will be there for you.
Cause nobody does it better,
We're gonna get there together.

Through the sun, and through the rain.
I'll be there for you.

training~

oh my damn room lights are not working!
who go n kacau it....???=/

anyway..
lets c...training was ok..
tiring..
1st day also wanna ko d..but later on not as bad cos 1st day is a cacat day..da stuff we did..tsk tsk
so far manage to touch room once la..do da toilet..hehe
then..this week..ah..i wanna die..
PA..wipings..ok lah...but not with da shoe im wearing!!and also but just da things dat need to b wiped..im speechless..aih
9 more weeks to go..ah..

oh..for my orientation day..can check it out here la..
seraphsam.blogspot.com hehe

n cny..i really donno how..=/

jo..im looking forward for ur M every weekend ya..:rolleyes: =)

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oh..HAPPY BDAY andrina..^^

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well..
things u wanna tell..tell..
i might not b countable..but i think im am at least a lil to u..if not u wouldnt act dat way i guess..

sometimes ur random ques..its kinda hard to ans..as ofcos..i would not get wad u mean..n even if i do..i might get da wrong idea u c..hehe

certain things..i think i noe wad ure feeling..
n ure asking me..certain things..
wad n how i feel n stuff..
i think all i can say is..
even if i do..
i choose not to c da diff n not to feel dat way..=)

i have no idea wad's in ur mind now..
but i guess..i'll just have to wait n c..
just take off all da negative tots from ur head now at least la k..heh


*currently waiting for results..*..=/