you tell me..

ppl just don really appreciate what they have do they?

y ppl cant just appreciate what d other fella have done?

as hard as i try to do what i can do but ppl just ask for more?

or take it for granted?

thinks what i did was not enough?

soooo not enough..

thinks i didnt do what i should do?

and sometimes just argue it off..

is it my prob?

or is it that ur needs and wants and expectations are just too hard to reach?

or am i just too calculative?

y not u tell me?

ah, crap it...

responsibilities?what's that?

holiday started..

no plans planned..

feeling broke..=p

feels kinda ridiculous to feel 'stress' after exams..during holidays..

with those 'responsibilities'..bah~

cant things just be slightly easy and not hard to handle?

cant just others cooperate? or do just as follows?

when things don go right, i have to bare..when trying to b direct, other ppl don like..

feels like im given a second chance to do better..

but i guess its not better compared to last time..

if i were given the third chance, PRAY HARD...no third chance please..

it'll eventually only make me lose my interest in what i like...

other than that....

currently feels like a home 'nurse'...literally..

honestly, sometimes felt a lil annoyed n frustrated..abit la..

its not that i wanna feel that way but just...sigh..

i know i shouldnt feel the way i feel now..

feels really bad to feel that way..

but really, why me?only me?

what bout the rest?

its my 'responsibility'? what bout the others?

others can 'move' freely and i need to tolerate with my plans?*thats if i have plans la*

someone once tegur me..bout my attitude towards her la..this la that la..

but seriously..no one in the house would und how i felt n none have went thru as much as ive gone thru n none have did what ive done for her..

n it seems like i'm the one who face her most of the time..*like so mulia -.-*

words are easy to say..

but i don see much actions from the rest?

when i go on with my plans i have to think of her first..what bout the rest?i donno..

i wouldnt say my attitude and actions or wadsoever towards her is good..

but definately..better than most of them..

or its 80% of what i could do..

i donno bahhh...

can feel that theres sth in me..a very heavy heart..

but donno how n where to throw n pour it to bring it back n feel the normal 'weight'..

in general..ppl don like ppl speak..

but for me..don like don speak..

ppl like, let it be..

if i speak..ppl might feel 'hurt' or 'sou heng'..

if i don speak n mention bout it later on ppl will say y didnt i tell earlier?

howww laaaaaa?

im know for my 'tolerance n patience power' anyway..

so who would care?

may God increase my edurance patience and tolerance for this coming 2 months..

says it all

its been a long time..

relatives came over..

so have been sleeping out recently..*sometimes la* hehe

going thru 3rd year finals..

donno if did well or not..but yea..as usual la..hehe

bm exam was..funnehh..

how karat can my bm be?haha

todays exam was...

God is good..

the questions which i don mind doing..but..ownself 'mm zang hei'..hehe

but its ok..i think it went ok..just abit sesat here n there..hehe

shud b studying french now..

but..dont seems to be progressing..hmmmm

wonder whos my jury..

will God be good this time as well?=D

2 more days and yee ha..holidays! =)

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y some ppl just dont change?

dont they think what they did is not right? or its sth they should not make as a habit?

or mayb i should b the one changing first? boo~

y some ppl just cant let go or stop thinking of the past?

keeping grudge or dissatisfaction against the fella which have done sth unpleasant to u..and that incident actually take place quite some time ago?

and perhaps start cursing or wadsoever on the fella..

just let it go bah..

making urself depressed only..tsk tsk

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it will b over by tmr noon! *good thing*

but still need to 'worry' for another 12 hours..haha

*waiting for time to pass*

*just notice the date, if only i notice it earlier..* hehe..

alright..back to studies..i hope..

nitez!

taz!

mua february..=)

woo hoo..

another weekend passed..

tmr monday, me no likey..

got trials..bahh~

n havent really practice on it yet..boo~

cant really rem wad other stuff i have tmr or for the week..@@

hopefully nth much after tmr la..=/

okay!

february!

had been an......good?soso? month la..

besides all the coll 'stress' and other stuff..

its been kinda of a 'fruitful' month not in coll sense..hehe

new toy arrived and finally get to try on it..

some were okayy...and some..oh my gosh..im speechless! haha

then had some badminton session with some coll mates..

seems like a rare gang or ppl for me to badminton with..hehe

and lou sang with coll mates..

some catch up moments with xm...

yc yc n yc..

'special' dinner from her!

my beilouved auntie piggy bday!!

and

had a long after bday session for 2days..ritee..lazing here n there..

and some cuties..hehe

and all that i wonder

i am sleepy

i am tired

i am feeling reluctant to do my work now so i blog

i am blogging nonsense

i no likey this coming monday

i no wan to do what i needed to do that need to b submited or such on monday

my weekends howww...

hoowwwww...

time management getting badder and badder..

tell me why oh why - spice girls

sleeeeepppp..

come back to me babeh!

help me bahhhh..=(

do work do work!

but brain not registering! bahh~~~

dammit..

who do u think u are..

wad do u think i am..

who do u think i am..

why must i do for u..

when can i b out of this..

how can i change..

the WHs!

complain complain rant rant grump grump all you want..

what can i do to make you happy, what can i do to make u smile? - the corrs

i have no where to turn no who to grump only got a place to rant..

all the i have is to act cool...cool yo..cool mint..

o well, as long as ure happy..

i rant u rant all rant all get annoyed..so wads d point..its just like imma get annoyed with someone n in d end im also acting like that someone..

i wonder how, i wonder why - westlife

and yes its common

ah, forget it..

another un understandable rant..

tata!

annoyance

getting sick n tired of it....

is it really worth my effort?

y cant some ppl change?

what r they thinking?

muka tembok?

i'll just say lucky they have me..

what if its d other way round?

ever tot of it? bah~

perhaps i can just say its all liddat because of me..

purpose?

whats ur purpose in life?

hmmm..

really i dont know..beh~

i have this particular..lec of mine..

have been kinda...hmmm..i donno..giving advice?commenting..or wadever u call it..

it always leaves sth for u to think about..

n personally, i like to listen but don really like to answer or respond to those..

most recent illustration that i could rem..

theres 2 boats..

one..a boat that i just ride on it n let the wind direct me..i go where ever the wind blows..

two.. a boat that im in control of where its rowing..

i would say im on the first boat..=/

n as he's teaching us once again this term..

those who have 'presented'..will b thrown a ques..

and mine was..

"do u have a purpose in ur life"..or sth liddat la..

i so knew he's gonna throw me such kind of ques lor..

but yea..guess its time for me to really find my purpose?

but nehh, not so ez for me i guess..heh

spiritually..call me...walking with faith...to where God wants me to be..=p!

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how do u like the feeling of being stuck in the middle?

sometimes u really wanna know but dare not know or dare not ask as thinking it sth that u shudnt know..

when sometimes u really want to but dare not or think better not..

sometimes u ask n the ans u got was an assurance but u think its just to make u feel better..

just hate thinking wad i tot it is but sometimes the truth is its not what i think it is..

but oh wellllll.......

think too much i guess?

insecure?

play safe?heh

is thinking too much a good or a bad thing?

u judge..hee