like ABC

it easy to just lay back n do nothing..perhaps being caught doing so..

but sometimes when things just have to happen or come out of the way which cause you to not be able to go with the plans others planned to..

yes once, coincidence..

twice..ok..still acceptable..

what if again?

that doesnt mean did not try or effort was not putted in to make changes..

and then you wonder, what ppl actually think bout u..

its easy to be u..

its easy to not be u..

the moment you act differently than what people think you are..

or the moment u did sth that you dont often do..

there goes all the why..there goes all the 'eh?!'..there goes all the bla bla bla~

from then on, you do not know how you should be..

as the song goes..*its hard to be urself sometimes, dont wanna be hated, dont wanna b what they want you to be*..

how true this line can be? what can you do?

its easy to say, its always been said actually..

family is the only one who u can rely on during ur downtimes..or when ure in need..

yet to discover how true this statement is i guess..

its easy to judge

its easy to blame

its easy to say

but its not easy to take it when its reflected at urself..

peace unto me!~

Inability

its easy to ask people to forget it, put it aside..cool ppl down..etc etc..

but it seems like, i cant really do it for this time..

the reason?

because i have other things to face after this..

thoughts of life..

being afraid, that once close, later on, the closeness just fade away..

what does it takes when you know/see the other side/not so pleasant side of the person..

can you tolerate much? or how long can you tolerate/resist?

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how does it feel, what should be done, doubting ur own capability, or feeling useless/unhelpful when u're supposed to contribute?

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sometimes the more u care, ppl will feel annoyed..

so, to care or not?

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how much does it takes to erase your bad/not so good thoughts against someone?

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the thought of it, just makes me worry for the times yet to come..

will i still enjoy? or will it be a drastic change? will it affect entirely?will it still be the same?

hope that it would not turn out as bad as i thought..

call me bad, but i just cant help it..