all in one

its all coming back again..
all the thoughts..
all the feels..

sometimes its not that i wanna think bout it..but just..gah~

its like...
dont u ever wonder..sometimes..wad's da point of u doing certain things?
i donno bout other ppl..but i do..
when u do certain things..ask certain things..mention certain things..
when you start acting silly trying to 'entertain' altho it might b lame or even not funny..but perhaps ppl might think..wth r u doing?such an idiot..or its just plain stu for them..
cared too much?bothered too much?asked too much?talked too much?what else?
o well, perhaps in other ppls eye, ure just too ke-po..haha
or just doesnt wanna share much..
or think u're just too annoying..
or wadever it is la..hehe

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hmm..
are there some priorities for ppl?
like..u choose who to care more or less, who to hang out more or less, who to bully more or less..who to ignore more or less..
or everyone is da same to u?

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do u ppl like change?
or have u changed?comparing now n last time?
u noe, sometimes its just speechless when u did sth that u nv did b4..or sth liddat?at least that's what ppl thinks..
then ppl tends to go like..

eh?since when u ______?
oh!finally u _____!
eh?u ____?but last time u not/didnt ____ wor!
eh?u ___ one meh?
eh!u ____ wor!!

what else?
gah~
how shud i respond?
i guess u'll justget d ans of "got, u donno only ma" or just smile it off or all u hear is just silence..=)

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u noe, sometimes its not that i don wanna believe certain things..
i tried, i trusted wad ppl says..commented..bla bla, but certain things that kept coming..n i couldnt get da reason why?don really understand why..
it makes me think and/or feel on a perspective that i know nuts, no one told me anything..
i mayb wrong..but i guess it doesnt matter?
but just that i feel really bad..ehehehe

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there's been a rat/mouse running up n down aimlessly on this 2nd floor..
next,
there's a cockroach walking up n down aimlessly on the same floor..
then,
there's a lizard without tail crawling up n down aimlessly on da same floor punya wall..
but da last time i see it, the fella have half a tail?haha already..

will i b like them?
moving aimlessly in this world?

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omgness, im so freakingly annoyed with da stu rubberbands in my darn mouth!urgh~~~

coll have been quite hectic? recently..
are we studying hospitality?ahaha..
asgs were quite difficult..
assessment was..........
project was....fun?depends how u c it..hehe

whole day spent with the girls..
SS punya fun n tired?
its been a great 2/3 weeks of fridays with them..
more in future?=)

its just like that

sometimes,
u just cant give the reason why..

and sometimes,
things just cant be understood..

why do u feel that way?
why do u think that way?
why this?
why that?
how this?
how that?

just unable to tell why..
unable to understand why..
donno why donno how..
no idea why no idea how..

humans..
just the way they are..

=)

i thought a thought?

sometimes i just wonder..
am i/can i using/use 'pleasing ppl' to cover up my 'cowardliness'?in wadever whichever way..
being quiet, being unable to speak up, being unable to stand up for myself..becos im a coward?
well i donno..who noes la rite?in certain situations..ehehe

just a sudd tot..hehe..
push that aside..

u noe its just somehow so disturbing that..
every single day..u're gonna b 'afraid' of sth?
regardless necessary or not..
its just sooo..'urgh' that whenever certain ppl come to u..pass by u..so happen its around u..
u're just thinking.."oh no..is that fella gonna come n approach me again"..
n when so happen da fella came n talk to u..u tot gonna ask for certain thing that u refuse to do so but ended up giving in..but in d end..its about sth else n u go like.."phew~"..

also another tot..hehe

i wonder..
are u a person who cares bout wad other or certain ppl think of u?
i noe certain ppl who doesnt care..which..good for them i think?
n i guess n i noe that..i do care of wad ppl think of me?
certain ppl la i guess..heh

honestly..im quite scared..worried..i donno..
i was wrong..i was right..i donno..
its quite sad to think wad i've been thinking..
i think ive been acting a lil differently lately?
i think its time for me to adapt to changes again?=)
tho i don wan to..
but i noe i need to..

the world's spinning round n round..
so nth will stay still..
things will somehow change..^^
even i felt that ive changed in certain way..
not better..but worse i think..
i feel bad..real bad..for thinking certain things da way i think..or doing certain things that ive did..
but..sigh..i donno lah..
ppl changes i guess..
tee hee..

hmm..
what's d possibility to trust/share sth to someone 100%?fine...90%?

God have been good to me these years..
but perhaps..im still not well trained enough to handle certain things?

i still rem..secondary..
da idiots created this..

i dream a dream but the dream i dream wasnt the dream i dream i dream..
i thought a thought but the thought i thought wasnt the thought i thought i thought..
was it u josephine?hahahah

time for english hw!=(

x.X =)

life after putting on braces?
now im 'afraid' to go to dental..
new phobia waaa~?hahaha..
not so bad le bah~
*wah purposely bcome so amy..jadi tak?xD*

i was neutral b4 this..
but as i kept going..going..and going..
oh my gosh..
even the slightest thing/sound..
yerrrrrrrr............hahaha
but oh well..

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u noe, i didnt really xpect myself to actually really play sports/use coll facilities..
but guess it's gonna start?
what more with new bunch of sports mate..
interesting..=)

and oh!
next training's coming..
penang?pahang?hmmm..