wad am i up to actually?

i admit..
i felt so lost..
confused..
lots of ques poping into my mind..
i donno wad am i supposed to do..

i wanna find out more..
but where r those ppl dat i wanted to ask?
i wanna ask several ppl as i wanna c if i can get da ans dat i wanted..

i don mean anything here..
but i juz wanna find ans to my ques to noe n understand it more..

i wanna release..
but could i?
who can i be honest to?

all i can say is..
this time..it hit 2 of my weakness....

im scared for some reason..
bare with me..
give me some time..

why?

stressnya..over unnecessary stuff..

y must things go so opposite than wad i wanted?

another minor test from god?
but y this time?
n why this thing?
testing my guts?bravery?confidence?directions?
but not till liddat la..

where's da small 'window' that u're gonna leave open for me?
hope im gonna find it soon..very soon..
i've got no time to waste anymore..

i dare not ask..as im afraid dat i'll get unwanted answers..
i dare not comment..as im afraid dat i'll get unwanted feedbacks..

i'll juz have to say..im not strong enough this time for this small little test..
sometimes i juz feel like crying lor..
yes..how emotional..
small big things also i can cry juz liddat..
but sometimes..i juz have to hold back..

gosh..is it necessary for me to b this way?nope..

super random..haha

guess wad..
joleen's car kena towed!!!..hahaha
illegal parking konon..=p..
nola..kena accident..at least da person is okay..don think too much la..
don if here if there..no point..hehe


oh well..staying up till late late lately to do asg..
but juz notice..have enough sleep will b sleepy in class..
lack of sleep..at least i don yawn in class or feel like sleeping wor..haha

oh well..im still stuck with 5 assignments..=/
and wad ever i did when i stay up is gone lor..which means i did nth..damn no mood d..ish

n i feel very broke now lor..for this month..haha

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my little butter boi~~<3








sama jenis tak?


sama jenis tak?

does this shows dat joleen's like an animal?lmao..
sry la jo..ahahahha..

y la is butter so da cute..xD

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what is meant by truly treasuring our own life.
love everything you have, less complain, and don’t importune.
Yes, fate gathers everyone and objects to experience different things, but sometimes there is only limited fate.
We do not mind if there is no fate between us, and we do not have to feel sad if the fate between us disappears.
Most importantly we are clear about what we already have.

credit to JG..^^

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tho i agree with wad she said as its kinda true this time..
but.......
i have my trust in you..=)

cooking n baking class!

i have my applied tech on monday..kitchen practical on thursday and pastry class today..=)

monday we learn how to cut..the veg..yeap..haha..

yesterday we start to cook~woo..n marks were given..score so little..=/
anyway..need to cook veg/clear soup and salad..
n now pic time..


few diff method of cutting..


wad we cut on monday is used..


veg soup..this 1 looks ok..but then..-.-"..tell u later..haha


turned out to b like dat..why le?i think we lose mark here..cos don really have da taste..to me got abit taste only..quite tasteless..=p
wad happened?it dried up!bodo~~~
so sort of last min add in water..stir stir abit..then need to hidang d..to me consider not bad d la got abit taste there..lmao
but my bread was nice..=)


n there goes the salad..
4got to take pic of da dressing..don think u wanna noe wad's it..
it may taste bad when doing..but aint dat bad on da salad..=)

zoom sikit..

super no creativity lor..=p


there goes..


oh..this is from another of my classmate..
this is wad u call creativity man..ahhaha


u noe..me n my partner..always think ours r like not nice n stuff..compare to how other ppl do..but always in d end..chef sure say consider ok or not bad one..
last time also liddat..this time also liddat..
then we made mayonnaise..it turn out super diff than d others..but its ok also!ahahah..

oh..yesterday after class..went pyramid with joanne to makan lunch..wendy's..hehe..
n i still cant find my joey cd..=/

and so today..baking class..
wad i bake leh..its called..choux pastry..
consider quite ez to do la..but not sure if can do it at home or not cos don have da electronic thing to boil da thing..unless can use da gas thing lor..
pics again..

forgot to take pic b4 its baked..hehe..so here's after baking..


mine so white..other all brown brown..always liddat one lor..mine always sure sligtly diff than others one..


see da dark one..dat's from other ppl's tray..xD


after everything's done..=D

it taste goooood i tell u..muahhahah
guinea pig where r u?=)
those in da pic are for u..


i think im gonna fall sick soon..
noo selsema..no..go away..jangan datang..xD

damn later got geo assessment..tot wan revise again today..but i think im gonna spend my time resting..gah~~~!

im afraid...

note for da day : being a lil too generous kills..being dumb another time..
it kills da person u help n it kills urself..gah~~
*i think some ppl shud noe wad happen d la?*

anyway..

i dont know how to xpress it in words..
shud i say..im afraid to lose some ppl dat i like(not in da sense of love love..haha)as a fren or after being a lil close to them?

i think most ppl shud xperienced this b4..or mayb its juz me la..
no matter how close or how much a person hang out with another..
no matter how long or how short time we noe each other..it doesnt seems to matter..they'll go seperate ways later on..
in da sense of..dont communicate..don hang out anymore in a way..
not even sms..msn or wad so ever..
not keeping in touch in a way..

frens..
good fren..
close fren..
(good or close come 1st?lol)
best fren..

ppl who i used to lepak with..
ppl who i used to listen to..
ppl who i used to go tuition with..
ppl who i used to play sports with..
ppl who i used to play games with..
ppl who i like to hang out with..

every one have gone seperate ways..
some of these ppl juz seems to like doesnt exist in my life anymore tho..
some juz appear once a while in my life..and some juz seems to b far far away which i dont know where..

if one day i were to meet any of them on streets or so..i dont even know if i shud like greet them or act as if i know them..but most of the time..if they don seems to recognise me..i wont do anything ofcos..

mayb they have 4gotten me..it doesnt matter i guess..
but i'll nv forget my frenz tho..
when do u c me 4getting my frenz?=p
what more are those ppl who i used to do stuff with..=)

sometimes juz wonder..
shud i go on hanging out n stuff to get closer to each other..yet i'll fell dat da person might feel annoyed by me..
or shud i take a step back so dat i wont lose some1 close in future?=/

i know its dumb to think in such a way..
but i juz cant imagine dat someone dat i always hangout with now turn out to b someone dat i hardly talk to in future..
its just a heartache..
yes like we noe wad'll happen in future..but still~
i really doesnt want dat to happen lor..
its like one day i'll think back..hm..i used to hang out with this fella quite often..but wad happen now?where's she?does she even rem me?i dont even know..

its not dat it nv happen b4..it does..
y dont 'you' tell me wad shud i do?=)

what the crappp~~~?

more n more assignments coming..
total of 7 for this term..=/..
oh well..can do it one!hehe..

btw,updated a lil on da previous post with da dye-ing pics..ahah

day b4 yesterday after class meet up with joleen..came over to my house..she do her test i do my asg..sama sama buat kerja sendiri..
then after sort of done..then play comp game..
then came to this game called burger shop if im not wrong..
she completed about 70 lvls in about 3 hours..-.-"
hardcore rite?ahahha..

n in bout 8 hours hoh..i drank like..i think got 3-4 small bottles d lor..n she 1 bottle also tak habis..tsk tsk tsk..must feed her with water d..since she always feed me with food..ahaha

and so we went mcd at nite as sort of craving for it cos of da game..lmao


then then..yesterday went to holiday villa with joleen..yes joleen again..
sien not?everyday c me..ahaha..

she's there earlier..to study there..
n such a last min plan..play badminton n pingpong..supposed bowling also..but didnt la..next time..

i sort of or shud i say we..laugh like mad yesterday..due to uncertain reasons..:rolleyes:

since i was streching..so she played with her sis 1st..she no need stretch ma..i need cos of my hand..so a no no gonna make it injured again..
cute/funny la c those 2 play..=p
then i play with her..omg..cannot tahan..ahah..
pingpong also..funny la..for some reason..xD

so sporty la yesterday..
suggested next time go play all da sports if possible..=D

after dat we went 'somewhere' for dinner..i think i better not mention where cos of da upcoming thing..but i think after seeing it shud know where is it kuar..lol

joleen having a hard time choosing between 2 food..but end up choose also la..
then donno wad we do there..talk talk talk..then somehow sudd fold sth with da tissues..due to my napkin project la..she ask me fold wad i can..lol..
note for da day..i cant c wad she do i cant hear wad she say n she cant c wad i do n she cant hear wad i say..:rolleyes:

slowly slowly..we "found" out sth..lets c wad is it..penggambaran bermula..


background..


turtle..


bird..


watak watak..


take 1..


take 2..


take 3..(final production)
got sound one..but donno can hear or not..
n dont know if u ppl know wad da crap is this..ahahaha


thank you..

omg joleen~~~~cant believe it man...ahahahhaha..xD
wad a day la..lol..
and thank you for the day..=)