im afraid...

note for da day : being a lil too generous kills..being dumb another time..
it kills da person u help n it kills urself..gah~~
*i think some ppl shud noe wad happen d la?*

anyway..

i dont know how to xpress it in words..
shud i say..im afraid to lose some ppl dat i like(not in da sense of love love..haha)as a fren or after being a lil close to them?

i think most ppl shud xperienced this b4..or mayb its juz me la..
no matter how close or how much a person hang out with another..
no matter how long or how short time we noe each other..it doesnt seems to matter..they'll go seperate ways later on..
in da sense of..dont communicate..don hang out anymore in a way..
not even sms..msn or wad so ever..
not keeping in touch in a way..

frens..
good fren..
close fren..
(good or close come 1st?lol)
best fren..

ppl who i used to lepak with..
ppl who i used to listen to..
ppl who i used to go tuition with..
ppl who i used to play sports with..
ppl who i used to play games with..
ppl who i like to hang out with..

every one have gone seperate ways..
some of these ppl juz seems to like doesnt exist in my life anymore tho..
some juz appear once a while in my life..and some juz seems to b far far away which i dont know where..

if one day i were to meet any of them on streets or so..i dont even know if i shud like greet them or act as if i know them..but most of the time..if they don seems to recognise me..i wont do anything ofcos..

mayb they have 4gotten me..it doesnt matter i guess..
but i'll nv forget my frenz tho..
when do u c me 4getting my frenz?=p
what more are those ppl who i used to do stuff with..=)

sometimes juz wonder..
shud i go on hanging out n stuff to get closer to each other..yet i'll fell dat da person might feel annoyed by me..
or shud i take a step back so dat i wont lose some1 close in future?=/

i know its dumb to think in such a way..
but i juz cant imagine dat someone dat i always hangout with now turn out to b someone dat i hardly talk to in future..
its just a heartache..
yes like we noe wad'll happen in future..but still~
i really doesnt want dat to happen lor..
its like one day i'll think back..hm..i used to hang out with this fella quite often..but wad happen now?where's she?does she even rem me?i dont even know..

its not dat it nv happen b4..it does..
y dont 'you' tell me wad shud i do?=)