all in one

its all coming back again..
all the thoughts..
all the feels..

sometimes its not that i wanna think bout it..but just..gah~

its like...
dont u ever wonder..sometimes..wad's da point of u doing certain things?
i donno bout other ppl..but i do..
when u do certain things..ask certain things..mention certain things..
when you start acting silly trying to 'entertain' altho it might b lame or even not funny..but perhaps ppl might think..wth r u doing?such an idiot..or its just plain stu for them..
cared too much?bothered too much?asked too much?talked too much?what else?
o well, perhaps in other ppls eye, ure just too ke-po..haha
or just doesnt wanna share much..
or think u're just too annoying..
or wadever it is la..hehe

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hmm..
are there some priorities for ppl?
like..u choose who to care more or less, who to hang out more or less, who to bully more or less..who to ignore more or less..
or everyone is da same to u?

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do u ppl like change?
or have u changed?comparing now n last time?
u noe, sometimes its just speechless when u did sth that u nv did b4..or sth liddat?at least that's what ppl thinks..
then ppl tends to go like..

eh?since when u ______?
oh!finally u _____!
eh?u ____?but last time u not/didnt ____ wor!
eh?u ___ one meh?
eh!u ____ wor!!

what else?
gah~
how shud i respond?
i guess u'll justget d ans of "got, u donno only ma" or just smile it off or all u hear is just silence..=)

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u noe, sometimes its not that i don wanna believe certain things..
i tried, i trusted wad ppl says..commented..bla bla, but certain things that kept coming..n i couldnt get da reason why?don really understand why..
it makes me think and/or feel on a perspective that i know nuts, no one told me anything..
i mayb wrong..but i guess it doesnt matter?
but just that i feel really bad..ehehehe

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there's been a rat/mouse running up n down aimlessly on this 2nd floor..
next,
there's a cockroach walking up n down aimlessly on the same floor..
then,
there's a lizard without tail crawling up n down aimlessly on da same floor punya wall..
but da last time i see it, the fella have half a tail?haha already..

will i b like them?
moving aimlessly in this world?

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omgness, im so freakingly annoyed with da stu rubberbands in my darn mouth!urgh~~~

coll have been quite hectic? recently..
are we studying hospitality?ahaha..
asgs were quite difficult..
assessment was..........
project was....fun?depends how u c it..hehe

whole day spent with the girls..
SS punya fun n tired?
its been a great 2/3 weeks of fridays with them..
more in future?=)