i thought a thought?

sometimes i just wonder..
am i/can i using/use 'pleasing ppl' to cover up my 'cowardliness'?in wadever whichever way..
being quiet, being unable to speak up, being unable to stand up for myself..becos im a coward?
well i donno..who noes la rite?in certain situations..ehehe

just a sudd tot..hehe..
push that aside..

u noe its just somehow so disturbing that..
every single day..u're gonna b 'afraid' of sth?
regardless necessary or not..
its just sooo..'urgh' that whenever certain ppl come to u..pass by u..so happen its around u..
u're just thinking.."oh no..is that fella gonna come n approach me again"..
n when so happen da fella came n talk to u..u tot gonna ask for certain thing that u refuse to do so but ended up giving in..but in d end..its about sth else n u go like.."phew~"..

also another tot..hehe

i wonder..
are u a person who cares bout wad other or certain ppl think of u?
i noe certain ppl who doesnt care..which..good for them i think?
n i guess n i noe that..i do care of wad ppl think of me?
certain ppl la i guess..heh

honestly..im quite scared..worried..i donno..
i was wrong..i was right..i donno..
its quite sad to think wad i've been thinking..
i think ive been acting a lil differently lately?
i think its time for me to adapt to changes again?=)
tho i don wan to..
but i noe i need to..

the world's spinning round n round..
so nth will stay still..
things will somehow change..^^
even i felt that ive changed in certain way..
not better..but worse i think..
i feel bad..real bad..for thinking certain things da way i think..or doing certain things that ive did..
but..sigh..i donno lah..
ppl changes i guess..
tee hee..

hmm..
what's d possibility to trust/share sth to someone 100%?fine...90%?

God have been good to me these years..
but perhaps..im still not well trained enough to handle certain things?

i still rem..secondary..
da idiots created this..

i dream a dream but the dream i dream wasnt the dream i dream i dream..
i thought a thought but the thought i thought wasnt the thought i thought i thought..
was it u josephine?hahahah

time for english hw!=(