pressing on

i've come to realization..

i always ended up doing things that i nv tot of wanting to do it..

no interest at first, but still doing it..

so much for feeling bad i supposed? responsibility?

remembered back then how i got started with volleyball..

was asked by senior to join..perhaps cos of my height..haha

tho they said, just write name, dont come also its ok..

but when the day comes, somehow felt bad not going?

so just go for it..

and here i am..volleyball became one of my main sport..

knowing how much i dont really like to do something..

but just because i was asked to do it or so..

eventually do it..

it may not be my responsibilities at times..

but by just providing a helping hand a lil here n there..

end up doing most of it..

same goes to a club that ive joined for a year now..

it was 50-50 to join or not..

but after submitting names..same thing..went for interview etc..

well, during that period, i dont know if i really wanna get into it..

but yea, i passed..

and here i am..being active in the club for almost a year..

taking over coll vball club..

was not very easy...

felt like stopping wadever im doing at some point of time..

but i cant, some how..

if i don do it, who will?

assignments and such..

when need to get it done..

tho its very last min or not very good with it..

will eventually getting it done on time..

talking about commitment and responsibilities..

am afraid that im a person who cant really commit much to sth..

but still eventually, will get involved..

now speaking about dissertation..

i dont know if i can handle it..

im still not certain with my topic!

i dont know what i want..

sth that i feel i really dont wanna do..*but i think it'll make me fail..haha*

but i should believe that it will end up like other situations..

will eventually get done with it, get over it..=)

i hope..hehe