lifeeee...

Its soon to be last quarter of the year. Every year, every time, people, including myself, tend to feel time past really fast, and eventually it's time for you to grow another year older!

Finally, cruise application and everything comes to an end, and now it's just the process of, waiting and waiting and waiting, that God knows when will the next update be.

At the meantime, trying to spend time with ppl as much as i can? and recently have been hanging with the SAC bunch...it's beeeeen a long timee...being active..sort of..

sad taboo being sad not being in the picture..kekeke

Have been wondering how life on board would be...and i would say, no one...support/agree with what im doing..

i believe at the end of the day, if anything happens on board, negative thing...it's all my fault, and ppl will be like, 'who ask u to', 'told u not to already' etc etc etc..wanna bet? but really..families, close friend, i couldnt even get a 100% support from the people that i wanted i would say..

yes, low position, low pay, not worth, suffering, hectic, long hours, no break, boring, complicated, dangerous, as much not so good thing/benefit u can think of working on board..and i would say only dumb ppl would leave a job im doing now, high pay, flexi hrs, moderate work load, etc..

sendiri cari pasal  bah?

and as much i can say, im being offered a pretty good opportunity on land...and yes, im a little in dilemma now..

but i guess what never changes is the experience i wanna get on board..i may not be doing what i like/want, and/or not achieve what i wanted, but at least i would say, ive experience it and have tried..since ive been always wanted to get on board..no?

and also an opportunity for me to 'get away' from all land matters as well...just let me be selfish for once, can?

as much as i said imma fly in 2-3 months time, what if i didnt?

reality vs want, how would you make ur decision?

im annoyed in everyway..