silencer

does it happen to be, the loud, crazy, noisy, open ones can mix around easily and have friends easily yet the quiet-er one, the cooler one, serious one, tends to be isolated and no matter how hard they try, its just almost impossible to fit in and be crazy?

well, at least that's how i felt tho..

being the 'slightly more matured', not acting too dumb n crazy, not talking too much, its not easy to mix in with a bunch of people..

is it just because people like this cant be as silly and crazy so they are just not that fun to be with?

i have no idea~

and when people may go like..

"ur guards are too high", "u still dont mix with ppl", "y r u still so cool", etc etc and etc etc..

all i can do is just, release a smile, and remain silent..

sometimes, my guards may b high for u, but not other people..well, take it as diff ppl sees me differently..=)

perhaps can put it this way, i have my own ways, and sometimes, or perhaps, most of the time it depends whether i want or not..if i want, really want, i'll make an effort to, otherwise, i'll just take it slowly..

there's no rule stated that u gotta be "OH HEI! bla bla bla and bla bla bla" to mix in or to be friend..

instead, if im not that kind of person, why should i be the 'fake me' and act that way..

perhaps u can say im the "safe" person n would take it slow..

and perhaps that explains why i dont have much frens (in a way) as well..=p

as i also notice, sometimes even if u put in so much effort or take a lot of initiative, its pointless as well..

regardless if its a new fren, good fren, close fren, or in certain matter,occasion etc, u'll still get sick and tired to take initiative..

so at the end of the day, why purposely make so much effort to fit in?

should i say...."if i want to talk to u, i'll talk to u" haha

the feeling of being a silent person would b quite cool i guess..

it sometimes give other ppl the feeling of, 'this person is quiet, yet mysterious, and seems like know a lot of stuff altho quiet'

boo ha~

money money

ever wonder what could money do to mankind?

if u handle money wisely, good stuff i guess..

but if u handle it not so wisely? what consequences would one face?

seriously, sometimes i just dont understand..

ever since i was a kid, i just couldnt understand..

why some people just dont learn their lesson? doing things not within their capability..and in the end have to beg here and there..

also, where could all the money a person have, disappeared to? like seriously.........

if kids or those who are younger than me, fine, i guess i'd understand..

but for those who are older? or even working?

if they are in need n asked to loan money, u'd wonder how did u spend ur money? where did it all go?

if u are in need and u wanted to loan money and yet they would respond 'no money'..then u'd wonder the same thing to..

 i would say that im a kinda stingy person..in a way..depends how u see it..

but i would also say im stingy to myself more..

its just weird to have people not willing to spend things for themselves but sometimes doesnt mind spending money for other people's benefit, aint it?

well, its ok if its out of willingness..but what if you just gotta do it? and its not out of willingness?

people always says..stop loaning money to the fella, u'll end up making things worse, he/she will just come back to u over and over again and will never change as they know they can come to u whenever they r in need..

but on the other hand, u'd also wonder what will happen to the fella if u dont help him this time..u really doesnt wanna help him but..........sigh..

so even if u did not manage ur money in the wrong way, but if u doesnt have a firm attitude, still, u still need to face the consequences..

as hard as you wanna save your money, ur money would just be gone without you using it...

as much as u're trying to save, the amount just dont increase, and sometimes perhaps decreases..

to people out there who always have money prob or money seems to be so little in ur life that u need to loan here and there or what so ever..

dammit, what do u do with ur money? stop using it unnecessarily! if u cant afford it, dont get it, if u have no cash, dont do it or dont buy it! geezzzz!

but nevertheless, money also helps u to notice who ur frens really are at times..

but so what if you know those people are not really ur frens? still, u'd mingle with them as u enjoy spending time with them..or perhaps, u have no other reliable frens..

Slacking moments..

now now, studies is over, intern is over, vball is over..

seems like everything has come to an end..and seriously, what am i to do?

i guess i'll still maintain n go for event line first..and hotel later on perhaps..
but seriously, what is wrong doing events? why would ppl think or say that hotel line is a better line?
yea no doubt hotel opportunity is very wide out there..
but still, salary wise? working hour wise? i would say its all about the same..

oh wellz, thank God i took some hk drama from my colleague before i left..haha! something that keeps me occupied during my slacking period now..
but, im left with 1.5 drama more..=/ stream after this? well, c how..haha

oh oh oh, i've finally bought an oven! *yea, instead of waiting for my mom or whoever to get one, which last time mom used to say will get after we shift to new house, but i guess shifting will never come true as we said wanna shift for years adi n still, staying here haha!*

bought a cheap cheap small small one..as i know i would not be using it often, especially who noes after when i start work..haha

Honey Cornflakes..MMMmmmm

Cornflake Cookie..

baked slightly too long thats y so dark..-.- and abit the big..

Raisin Cookie..

Chocolate Cookie..

Cookie recipe credits to Amy! =D

so far only made 2 'products'..more to come..I HOPE!

now i think think, its not that i will be lazy to bake..but i guess its more like im lazy to buy the ingredients?-.-"

i think if i bake often, i'll slowly go broke too..hahaha

Been helping out emily with her dissertation..selalu starbucks and mcd..and sayaka brought us too..

burger lab~

well, not bad, quite nice i would say, but a little on the pricy side tho..

Jacinth and sheawen's doggie, teddy..haha

 We have an intruder ~ or, visitor? haha

This kitty has been roaming around my house lately, initially find it outside, and slowly, saw the fella in my house, walking freely..haha

ah, at least next week imma work part time for about a week..
not that slack after all..
earn money for my own holiday..yee haw~!


oh oh, result out d but lazy wanna go collect..sigh i wonder how did i do..
just hope that the grades will not be too low as i know for myself how 'well' did i do..=/

Uni Vball =)

its november alreadddddy~~~

first off, our last vball tourney this year..for now..well im pretty sure no other tourney is up for us after this anyway..hehe

SUKIPT, i guess is one of the biggest vball tourney..i would say teams from all around msia, even sabah and sarawak..i would say its sth like olympic?haha

so yeah, take a view of the opening ceremony! well, supposed to be LIVE on Astro Arena, wonder if anyone watched it..haha

Fireworks! awesome~

 

After the opening ceremony, games starts and last for a week..

Guys unfortunately lost at 3rd round, before entering the quarters..=/

Girls on the other hand, made it to semi finals and got 4th. Honestly? it was a waste as we know we could made it further, to the finals..

but nevertheless, the 3rd 4th placing, altho we lost, but it was an awesome game..everyone highly spirited =)

well, we take down national teams 2 sets, not bad la..=D

Well, 5 years in uni, and 3 years of vball..

first year was of a first great achievement in my uni life and also a great start off for Taylor's vball..random people, no one knows anyone joined and formed a team with mainly new players..

An awesome team with everyone, both male and female team closely bonded, i would say this team is where everyone is able to click with everyone altho most of us just knew one another..^^

thanks to them for giving a great kick start..

second year is where the left over of the 1st year and some new people..and wow, this teams consist of few of my secondary vball junior..not bad..haha

it's also a year which i felt its the most happening for us, as we travel here and there regardless big or small scale games or even just to travel..

An awesome team where its filled with random plans, humour and silly acts..

and the third year, this year, also the last year..some left over from the first 2 years..haha..and also a number of newly joined people, i mean, newly joined good and young players..

this year is happening in the sense that few tournaments are almost back to back..

An awesome team as i would say its the strongest team compared to the previous 2 years..the strong ones are strong and the others are almost equivalent overall..

thanks to them for ending my uni vball years with such great achievements..=)

perhaps i can say that it start off with a memorable champion achievement and it ends with consecutive champion achievement..=D

now now, what's next? will i still b playing vball? we'll see how..

reality?

Sometimes i would just wonder, what for?

i mean like, in certain situation...what for putting in so much effort?
i would say its a choice..
i would be thinking, if other people, or the main people, they put in more effort, fine its their part..
if the main people, does not plan to or not able to put in their effort, their prob..

being the not so important, at least i think so..haha..or just someone behind the scene, or wadever u call it..
knowing that, no matter how much effort or sweat u poured in or at least trying to..the end results will still be the same..then....why still do it? why still go for it?

once u're behind the scene, and not as outstanding as those main people infront of you..or sometimes its just by one mistake that you've made or what so ever..you're always left behind, until they got no choice, then only notice u..

fair or not, its not for us to judge..
we'll have own thoughts and feeling about it..but all we can do is just, accept it.

perhaps that shows how reality life is, regardless if its a big or small matter..