rant rant and rant again

2 weeks break before i start my new job..
i guess it would be better for me not to have break at times..
if things go on like that, i'll go nuts seriously..

everyone have a choice, but i don think i got a choice..especially when im home..gah~
it may seems im being so bad, but seriously, back to old ques, why me and always me?
just because im too free? just because im such a good kid that i dont go out often? geez
then should i be out the whole time to 'escape' from this?
yes i feel like it, it makes me feel like dont wanna be home..

its so illogical when convenience is there for u and u dont make use of it..
i just dont understand why some people can just be so inconsiderate..
it makes me feel sick for being considerate throughout my years..

never seems to have a good sleep ever since..
my brain is like on 24 hours standby mode..

everything makes me feel so frustrated irritated annoyed..
but again, i just gotta face it..just.because.

pray that i wont go nuts soon -.- or perhaps depression ha-ha