sad not?

23 years of life, and have not found what i really want..geez

as much as i dont want to work thru connections, but after graduating, my jobs are all based on connections..sad not?

i've nv really liked that 'bunch' of people but now am doing/i have to do sth for them..sad not?

career prospect = unknown
will i last long? do i have a choice? unknown..sad not?

as much as i feel annoyed and irritated, now that its no longer like that anymore, tends to feel a little quiet, bored, lonely? u name it, also worrying..

career failing me,
people failing me,
things failing me,
im failing myself.

seriously, my life?
i think i really need to do sth with it..
but?

God knows.