back to square one?

thinking back..
wad ppl have done n said..
wad i've done n said..

reading back..
wad i've sent out..
wad i've received..

does it..
really change me?
change da situation?
go da way i wanted it to b?

im wondering if..
i am doing/done da right thing?
it really makes a diff?

i dont know..
i've got to say i really dont know..
i dont know wad im up to..
i dont know wad my heart says..

i always wanted to avoid certain situation..but could it?even if i could..not always i can avoid myself from it..
i guess i'll juz try to avoid as many times as possible if i can?=/
n i know dat ppl will eventually "smell" it n find out one day..

i guess i'll juz see how it goes..
where its leading me to..