how neh?

and again..i think bout it..how?i donno
mayb cos things just came 1 after another lately..
i felt bad?i don feel good?i donno wad to do?confused?not sure?
i really really dont know................
i would say i felt pressured as well i guess..i donno y..
i noe all this are so unnecessary!

i would say i almost break down..but i didnt..i think?
ive survived so long..ive tried to go on for so long..n i noe i shudnt give up now..
i noe i need to ask n speak up when i need to for my own good n process..but knowing me..how often will i ask?

i also noe i need speak...to certain ppl..
but..im also quite scared to start..
n obviously..i do really need da right time to speak..
but when's the the rite time?cosidered the rite time?-.-
i donno how long more i can hold on to this..
but i noe i just have to...

if i really planned to let go..i would have done it long ago..
i think i noe where am i heading to..
but i still need time..
yes i noe its been so long...
im sry for making u ppl dissapointed..if u ppl even care la..
but slow progress better than not progressing rite?=)
the journey havent even really started yet..
i just need the right time to press the 'start' button..
n i noe my effort wont go to waste as long as i stay strong..=)


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time flies really fast..quite la..
still rem da time when im still stuggling..well..not really..the 10 weeks..n now its d end of it..

will miss da ppl there tho..heh

now next..coll..donno if im looking forward to it or not..
if no training i think next week i'll b having my exam..ahaha
i think da only subject im looking forward to is french..but i guess after dat i'll suffer as well..bah~haha

anyway..3 weeks off..
wad am i to do?=/..
dah la my connection/comp is playing a fool with me..
i cant do much..surf also susah..game also cant play..do wad?=(
i would say..no comp n no plans = rot?how to survive for 3 weeks?everyday sleep whole day meh!
so any of u got anything..lemme noe la k?hehe..
accompany me..or i accompany u..whichever la..keep me occupied yo..=D..don wanna b alone..=(
who's good enough to do so?hehe

*i think my memory..merosoting d..how?><*
*where to go for da next training?hmm*