again..

im at it again..
whyyyy laaaaa....=(

if i have a choice i really don wanna think bout it..
if possible not anymore..but i think i will..

ive said da word..
doubt there's a way back..
but dat's not da point..

y u ppl start it?
y ask bout it?
im not blaming..its not wrong to ask..
its just dat i'll think bout it again when im being asked and i donno wad ans shud i give when its questioned..

y am i making such a big fuss over it?
y am i still thinking so much bout it?
im juz stressing myself out for no apparent reason..
n im juz messing myself up if i go on like this..

i know i need to b as honest as possible n share wad im thinking with 1 of you from there..
but who shud i go to?
i shud choose correctly in da sense of time n ppl..

sometimes when i think bout it..it makes me to da extend of wanna cry for a moment to release some tension..sigh..

i guess this is my 5th post ranting bout 'it'..
but oh well..
i hope dat i'll stick to my words n have da guts to confront by this 2 weeks..=/